so many thots running thru mi now.

lets burn the bridge.friendship nids both party to build.but e bridge is olwaes growing longer on my side.u r doing nth.tis time i noe wad i react to u hurts u.but mama.im tired of taking the iniative evrytime do u noe tat?m i tat scary?y cant u take the first move?like ytd trng.i tried guiding u thru when u don noe how to play.i did not shouted at u.i be patient wif u.but in e end wad did i get from u?i did not talk to u cos i wasnt in a gd mood.i feel so useless.n todae.i went shooting on my own.i felt.so empty.i dun0 hu to find.im waiting for u to talk to mi.but.u did not.u gave mi abt attitude cos i noe u were upset wif mi too.but.hais.on the way to sheng shiong.i was thinking.i got so so so much things inside mi tat i wanna let out.but i was thinking.hu can i trust?hu can i talk to?i felt real bad.i dunno how tocarry on.i saw u cry jus now.i felt bad.i felt like crying too.but i did not cry in front of them.i controlled.im strong.i don wan drop tears in front of them anymore.but.mama.guide mi.i dunno wad to do anymore.u hav eur frens.n they seems to be making u happier den i can.


i saw wad u wrote le.im sorry.im hiding in my own shell tat i don feel like touching my fone.i missed u so much too.but im feeling so so low inside mi tat i dunno wad im doing.saw wad zhen wrote in eur tagboard.hav i changed?i don even recognise myself too.i kiping everything inside mi.i really dunno wad im doing.i've neglected u.dui bu qi.giv mi time.i nid u.really.tis time come to mi will u?pls pls pls.bout tat wed.i was real sincere in gg out wif u all.i wanted to go.but i can onli meet u all later den 2.i noe i bombed agn.sry:(


fucked.

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