ok i read geraldine's blog.
wad she wrote is wad ive been feeling for the past 2months?
seriously,the passion is gone.
i rmb i once told sir,which is recently onli.
"i think the passion is lacking in me.i shut myself off after each trng ended.it's time for me to do some thinking bout wad i really wan in basketball."
till now,ive got no conclusion in thinking wad i really wan in bball.
im no longer that pure,even till now.im still doing things which is not good for the game.
the passion is gone long ago n i guess it was after bgals ended.
i gained some back after olevels but lost it again when i went carl's jr to work.
n its had been half a yr,nearly to one yr,ive not yet find the passion for the game.
sir said this, " i have always believed in you, that you can be a fantastic player. it is becos u have a passion that is unrivalled among your peers. you can make it, you know. just do it."
oh well,i doubt so.
i trained i fall i pick myself up.but still,im nothing.
it's my 4th yr playing the game.i told myself,its not easy for me to reach tis far.so many things had happen n i go through everything.its damn not easy la.i shld be glad that i still have a batch of kx jie-meis still with me playing the game.but,whr to find my love for the game again??
i learned i trained,i blocked,i did wad sir wan,i followed and i listened.but my hardwork still don pays off.im seriously v upset.i dunno wad i really wan in bball ANYMORE.
if geraldine were to leave,all the more i find no reason to gain my passion back.
she's one friend that i always have quarrels with.but still,i love you!
tis part is for geraldine kwek:
tis few years of being in the same team as you playing bball,u made me learn alot alot of things from u and from our quarrels.u make me see things in another way.when 2months plus ago ive lost my place in kx,i totally drag myself to trng each time.but seeing u guys still training n playing the game,i continued.but now you're giving up.don u tink its a waste?not eating fries,finding ways to build eur stamina and muscles,improving eur game etc etc.is it worth it now to give up?i noe whenever u fall and climb up again,something happen and u fall again.that's life.i hope you'll think it over v seriously ok my gal! (:




if you ever feel your strength, commitment and intensity are dwindling, falling, ebbing, please please please, look at this photos and ask: "do they matter to me, does my part matter to them, will not doing my part hurt them?"







all these are so precious.but,im not playing the game with my heart. ):










i dunno wad u want.i seriously have no idea wad's in your mind and heart.as time pass,i feel that we're going further and further.till i dunno whr.and we're quarrelling so often now.hais.